{#13} Survey

-What is your name?
Michelle.
-Are you named after anyone?
Not really.

Basics
-Your gender:
I am a Female.
-Straight/Gay/Bi:
Straight.
-Single?
Yup.
-Birth date:
18/01/94
-Your age:
16
-Age you act:
16?
-Age you wish you were:
I'm fine like this.
-Your height:
5'3 / 1.59cm
-Eye color:
Blue...ish.
-Happy with it?
Sure.
-Hair color:
Blonde...ish.
-Happy with it?
Sure.
-Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:
Right. 
 Do you speak another language?
Spanish, Hebrew, and English.

Life
-Do you live in the moment?
I try to.
-Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?
Not so much. But I try to be.
-Do you have any secrets?
Yes.
-Do you hate yourself?
Most of the time.
-Do you like your handwriting?
Yeah.
-Do you have any bad habits?
I smoke. A lot.
-If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?
Growing up.
-What's your biggest fear?
I can't think of it right now. I guess I've become pretty fearless.
-Can you sing?
No.
-Are you a loner?
Sometimes.
-If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
Not really. I don't think I'm worth it.
-Do you think you are emotionally strong?
I try to be. But I'm weak, and I'm vulnerable. Most people don't know that though.
-Is there anything you regret doing or not doing in life?
Yes. But I try not to think about it.
-Do you think life has been good so far?
Not so much. It's been really, really hard.
-Do you think you are good looking?
I think I'm fat.
-Are you confident?
People think I am. And I am, sometimes. But it's hard.
-What is the fictional character you are most like?
I don't know.

Do You...
-Smoke?
A lot.
-Do drugs?
No.
-Read the newspaper?
Sometimes.
-Pray?
Not anymore.
-Take walks in the rain?
Yeah.
-Drive?
Nope.

Would or Have You Ever?
-Liked your voice?
Nah.
-Hurt yourself?
In every single way.
-Been out of the country?
Yeah.
-Eaten something that made other people sick?
Probably.
-Been in love?
Yeah.
-Done drugs?
No.
-Gone skinny dipping?
Yes.
-Had a medical emergency?
Yup.
-Had surgery?
Nawh.
-Ran away from home?
Yup.
-Played strip poker?
Yeah.
-Gotten beaten up?
No.
-Beaten someone up?
I've bitchslapped someone.
-Slept outdoors?
Yeah.
-Thought about suicide?
I did. I'm not proud of it.
-Gone one day without food?
Yes.
-Talked on the phone all night?
Yeah.
-Slept together with the opposite sex without having sex?
Of course.
-Slept all day?
Yeeah.
-Made out with a stranger?
Yeah.
-Met a famous person?
Yeah.
-Have you ever killed an animal by accident?
Yup. Fish.
-Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?
Yes.
-Been on radio/tv?
Yes.
-Been in a mosh-pit?
Yeah.
-Had a nervous breakdown?
Happens a lot.
-Bungee jumped?
No. It's on my to-do list.
-Had a dream that kept coming back?
More than once.

Beliefs
-Belive in life on other planets?
Yeah.
-Miracles?
No.
-Astrology?
Yes.
-Magic?
No.
-God?
No.
-Satan?
No.
-Santa?
No.
-Ghosts?
I do.
-Luck?
Yeah.
-Love at first sight?
Yes.
-Witches?
No.
-Easter bunny?
No.
-Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?
If you want to and you are in love, then yes.
-Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?
Yeah.
-Do you wish on stars?
I used to.

Deep Theological Questions
-Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?
No.
-Do you think God has a gender?
I don't think there's a God.
-Do you believe in organized religion?
No.
-Where do you think we go when we die?
I'm going to hell. Don't know what about you.

Friends
-Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?
Not that I know of.
-Who's the one person that knows most about you?
I don't know. I mean I don't even know things about myself.
-Your favourite inside joke?
You would never ever ever understand.
-Who's your longest known friend?
My best friend.
-Newest?
No idea.
-Smartest?
Deanne.
-Who are you on the phone with most?
Don't know.
-Who do you trust most?
I barely even trust myself.
-Who listens to your problems?
My close friends. I complain a lot.
-Who do you fight most with?
Hah.
-Who's the best singer?
Don't know.
-Do you always feel understood?
Who does?!
-Who's the loudest friend?
I think it's me.
-Do you trust others easily?
I've learned not to. The hard way.
-Who's house were you last at?
Deanne's.
-Name one person whos arms you feel safe in:
My dad?
-Do your friends know you?
I don't know me.

Love and All That
-Do you consider love a mistake?
Everything can be a mistake. Even love.
-What do you find romantic?
I don't know.
-First kiss?
So not answering this.
-If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?
Normal?
-Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them?
Yeah.
-Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?
I think so.
-Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?
I know they do. I hate it.
-What's the last present someone gave you?
Mhm. Interesting. My tattoo. I think.
-Are you in love?
No.

Who Was the Last Person...
-You wanted to kill?
No one.
-That laughed at you?
My parents.
-You went shopping with?
Dunno.
-To make you cry?
I dare you to make me cry.
-To brighten up your day?
Don't know.
-That you thought about?
Don't know.
-You saw a movie with?
Gil.
-You talked to on the phone?
Mhm. Don't know.
-You saw?
Dad.
-You lost?
I've lost so many people that it doesn't matter anymore.

Right This Moment...
-Are you going out?
No.
-What are you wearing right now?
A tank top and panties.
-Body part you're touching right now:
My arm's touching my thigh, but my hands are on the keyboard.
-What are you worried about right now?
I'm not gonna start with that.
-What book are you reading?
Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close.
-What's on your mousepad?
Nothing.
-Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:
Pissed. Annoyed. Confused. Tired. Hot.
-Are you bored?
Yes.
-Are you tired?
Yes.
-Are you talking to anyone online?
Yeah.
-Are you talking to anyone on the phone?
Nope.
-Are you lonely or content?
Lonely.
-Are you listening to music?
Incubus-I miss you.