{#9} Emails to ghosts 1

Hello... It's me. I know this is not fair for either of us... but I guess I just... want you to read my words. Somehow. To remember me. Even if you don't want to. It's just... I miss you too much. You can ignore this, if you don't want to keep reading. I'm not going to beg, or cry. Not anymore. It won't bring you back, will it? I tried leaving you a voice message, but your phone isn't working anymore. I guess I knew that, somehow. How long has it been since you've been gone? I know it's only been 5 months... but it feels like forever. Remember how we used to watch my favorite movies? The ones you hated... we'd watch them all night and you'd hug me and we'd kiss... and I'd fall asleep in your arms. Those days were amazing. I miss them. And I still love you. So much. Words can't really explain it. I wish you were here with me. Or just here. You being gone... it seems like it was all worthless. And it hurts. But I know you're better now. I know you stopped suffering. I miss you.
I will always love you.

"Someone once said that death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live. I could tell you who said it, but who the hell cares."